I have planned to celebrate my birthday in glory.
Dress nicely, go out.
Eat at nice place.
nice atmosphere, nice food.
Splurge on myself for once.
but something more important than me popped out.
who am i to fight?
So it was moved to the weekend.
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Once again, the whole sunday have to be postponed cancelled.
the worst birthday ever.
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When you need a laptop, who's the one that drove all the way north to pass you.
When you need to buy a particular thing at a particular shop down south (woe to the budget shops at HDB areas or at cheapskate shopping malls, they are too lousy for your sophisticated needs), who's the one that drove you down.
Who's the one that drove you to buy flowers for your function?
Who's the one that accompanied you when you need to work?
Who's the one that drove to take care of you when your night of fun ended up with you being drunk and crying?
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And all I want is my OWN laptop for work, and it is too troublesome for you to deviate from a south-bound journey to pass me a simple bloody laptop?
Don't give me the crap of you taking taxi all the way down to pass me and then take taxi back. Your taxi fare.
You are willing to spend so much money on 2 guests so that they can sleep more.
Then why the hell am I spending so much money on you so that you can save your expenses...... .....only for you to spend on other people?
Do you know that I have been trying to save so that I can pay for your LASIK? I have been watching my bills so that I can buy you a proper PC for your home?
I try my best to save so that you can splurge on 2 strangers to sleep 15minutes more??
YOU TELL ME HOW TO BE FAIR?
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On my bday, I have to be 2nd, 3rd grade citizen. I have enough. I gave you only the best. I spend on you so that you can enjoy ur own salary for urself, not to splurge on strangers.
I keep my weekends as free as possible because you need me.
I keep those nights free so that you can use my laptop and I can accompany you till late.
I sleep at your place so that I can drive you to work so that you can sleep more in the morning.
SLEEP MORE IN THE MORNING.
YOU tell me that you want those 2 guests to sleep more in the morning, at my expenses.
I am your boyfriend, not your bloody sucker.
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This is one of the saddest moments.
When emotions erupted in the car, instead of you concerned about my feelings, you are concerned over your own face, your pride.
You cared that we quarrelled in front of your guests, coz I lost your face.
You didn’t care about my feelings or the issue at hand.
You were very very concerned about your pride and their comfort zone.
I am really sad over this. This is not the 1st time we faced this situation. If you think you prefer your pride and face, please don’t choose me.
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Guest Priority.
I am simple less important than a guest.
In my family, i care for those that I love more and care more.
If a guest is in my home, rest assured I will treat him well, but not at the expenses of my own relatives and loved ones.
I would never treat someone i love better than a guest.
Please don’t tell me this is your mum’s opinion, not yours.
I have seen you disagree and argue with her. If you feel you are right, you won’t have called me to say no.
In any case, you are her daughter and my bf. Its your role to remind her that your bf is important. Far more important than your 2 guests. THEY ARE YOUR GUESTS, not your mum’s.
Unless of course, you yourself don’t feel that I am more important.
If your family prefer a guest, then I am afraid i would not lower myself down. I would prefer always be a guest and a perfect stranger to your family. At least I enjoy higher status than a man in your family. A man with no respect.
You said you love me. I am afraid it doesn’t show.
You do not know how to love a person. Loving a person doesn’t mean saying it only. It means treasuring and taking care of the person like he is the 1st person in your life.
I am very saddened by your lack of understanding.
