decisions are tough.

last year, i won an award from my insurance company.
i was ushered off overseas for some convention. at there, we took a photo.

now now, that photo was taken using special equipments coz i think there were, err, 300 people in that photo?

it was those kinda of camera that u rotate around a stand, and u have to keep still for many many secounds while the camera scan the whole room. powerful stuff.

well, today, after sooooo many months, they have finally sent me the photos.
everyone's name is listed under the photo (logistic nightmare)....

the photo is HUGE.
wow. its like 2 A4 paper laid length to length.
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i spread the photo on my table and took abt 2 minutes before I could find myself in it.

suddenly, at that moment, i feel very small.
i have always feel bigger than life, bigger than everyone.

suddenly, this very photo jolted me.
in the grand scheme of nature, I'm just a minor detail.

don't you feel small sometimes?
don't you feel irrelevant?
helpless?
that life is 1 big question mark?
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i gave swiss miss the biggest advice i can ever provide.
i asked her to listen to the Sunscreen song.
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sometimes i worry too much.